You have changed my heart. You’ve been in our lives for a month now, and these are the best words I can string together to explain the effect you’ve had on me. You always hear “having a kid will change your life.” Not only have you changed my life, you’ve changed the way I think, feel, value, and appreciate life.
I tell people that the first time I held you it didn’t feel like we were meeting for the first time. Instead, it felt like you had always been there- always been a part of my life. From the second you came into the world, my heart was divided even further; now not only does mom carry a part of me with her- so do you.
This first month has been incredible. Every little gasp or coo you make- every little fart, every cry- love. My little man. You do really cute things like laying very still, then suddenly throwing your arms and feet in the air like you are casting a spell. You try to escape your swaddle like Houdini… at first one finger will make it out by your neck, then a hand… then an arm.. then suddenly both arms. You are a little escape artist.
Your yawns are adorable.. your eye contact. Every little thing is perfect. I’ve woken up and told you “dad wants 4000 kisses today,” and you are ready for the challenge. (I think the most I’ve gotten in a day is 1400 so far) haha.
Some recent things: I wore you in a baby carrier for the first time yesterday. Mom takes you for walks a lot. You’ve started making small trips like Target or Costco. You eat every 3 hours. You wake up once a night at around 2:30am. You LOVE dad time. You can almost pick up your head. You make eye contact now.
I am so glad you are a part of my life Tucker. I could never have imagined I could love you so much. I can’t wait to see what you become. I’m daydreaming about sending you to summer camp for young web developers, or musicians, or sports camp. I’ve started you a college plan. I’m doing everything I can to give you the best possible chance to be whatever you want to be someday.
God couldn’t have given me a more perfect son. I am so thankful for you. You are laying on my lap sucking on a pacifier- no idea why your weird dad is crying right now.
Have a good morning son.